Change.
Everyone deals with it every moment of every day.
Some plod through everyday changes that don't affect the sun from coming up.
Others deal with change on a cataclysmic level.
Survivors do both but change represents a resonating ripple that never stops. It's a twang that pierces and reverberates throughout our lives.
So much so that any change, good, bad, ugly or indifferent, marks a stress that is hard to describe. I am sure there is a psychological term for it but that is irrelevant.
In the darkest of days, replete with pain, nausea or worse, survivors rely on routine and comfort points to pull them through. The simplest items such as a favorite TV show at the regular time or the cacophony of crickets on a spring evening can mean being above or below the line of sanity. A simple tune on the radio can mean salvation or a tumble into despair.
When those dark waters ebb, change still reverberates. It still clangs within our minds. Fear's flame never truly snuffs out. A new school. A new home. A new job. A new life. Fear. There are no comfort points to hold onto.
Survivors struggle to free themselves into a brave new world. Those that take a step, are loathe to make mistakes or venture too far. Some even fail...
Change. Always a constant in the universe.
But there are many who swallow their fear and push outside of their realm. They will take cues from those before and "just do it". The are truly naked and afraid but in their tremble, they seek to put their steps in another arena.
Change can bring about a sense of normalcy. There is a small bravado that comes with conquering the fear of the unknown.
I grew up an introverted loner. The world was scary. It still is. To this day, I will not watch the news. New people, places....all long shadows that cast over me to this day. They lay hidden. Lying in wait. They will not influence me like before but they are still there.
Change can be a sugar. Sweet. And you once you experience any change, you will start to crave more.
Many survivors never learn this. I know many who have.
I salute them and I walk with them in spirit.
This is who we are. We can make a difference in this harsh world.
And we welcome the change...
